The pendulum on the upswing

After over a week of feeling very sad (but managing to keep on keeping on), I finally feel my tide is rising again. I can't attribute this change to any one thing, but several: hormones settling down, getting some solid work offers, the help of good friends, reading, meditation and one kick in the butt from an unlikely source.

Monday we celebrated International Women's Day here in Moncton by honouring our Phenomenal Women. Although dragging my carcass out of bed on a Monday after the clocks went forward, when feeling completely blah, felt really, really tough, I did it anyway. I had to pay back my friend and creative partner for the tickets after all.

I had committed to attend the morning workshop, which turned out to be on the topic of motivation. Great, just what someone lower than the amoeba under the belly of an ant needs.

Yeah, I was howling at the moon sad. 

But I went anyway. And I was kind of poopy in my lack of enthusiasm, but when I get that down, I just can't "act as if". The morning workshop was good, but I always feel kind of icky hearing these motivational speeches. Don't get me wrong, Nancy Allen (of Snaz jewellery designs and the Golden Globes fame) was awesome, and inspirational and all that. And the luncheon was great too. In hindsight, it was a pretty great way to spend the day. But it wasn't until after lunch, when I checked my email and there were messages for two new jobs, that I started to come around.

Nancy must have been great, because I actually tried the morning in the mirror "You are awesome!" testosterone raising exercise... and you know what? It worked! I did feel awesome all day yesterday. And again today. I even made up my own little 3-step pose. So thank you Nancy Allen, for your tireless enthusiasm. I'm sure I made you earn your dues!

I also started meditating with Deepak Chopra and Oprah in their 21 Day Meditation Challenge for perfect health. I've always wanted to meditate, and judging by my blood pressure reading (117/65 thank you very much) afterwards, and the amazing relaxing walk with my dog where my energy went right down the leash, this is something worth paying attention to.

And, of course, there is the reading and writing I've been doing with Mike Dooley, from his book "Leveraging the Universe." I'm getting it! And today I acted as if I was wealthy by spending three hours in a salon, getting my hair highlighted and cut (washing away the grey!). Now that's money well spent.

So, here I am, again, feeling good and believing that I deserve to be wealthy, God wants me to be rich, and that I can do the same quality of work from my beach house in Costa Rica as I can in my soon-to-be decked out dream office.

Thank you to all who helped me get through this slump, whether you knew it or not. The goodness of people makes me so proud to be on this planet at this time!

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Honestly, I really didn't know about this special day... I assure you it was a coincidence (but I don't believe in coincidences) so perhaps I'll go with sub-conscious. Yes! That's my story and I'm sticking to it!

Happy March 14th everyone!